A Personal Note

Seeking God’s Direction: Home and Church

In my last post I told you that we had to leave our local church here in Fort Wayne because of my hyper-sensitivities, especially to sound,  and I explained my decades long battle with Fibromyalgia (FM). Since it is not working out for us to move full-time to Florida this year,  we are seeking the Lord on how to navigate a way of maintaining connection to other believers where we are, without my attending public worship services. I said I’d explain “in my next post.” Here we are.

I am wondering if you or any of your friends struggle with knowing how to belong to a local church. I’ve been exploring answers and options, looking for ones that are truly God-honoring. Where shall I start?

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When Worlds Whirl

What a crazy summer. Twists and turns. Forward and backward.  Sense and  confusion. Well, that’s how my summer has gone.

I just re-read my last post which I wrote at the end of June in honor of our country’s 250th anniversary. I wrote of our young nation’s deep, historical roots (represented by four cities: Jerusalem, Athens, Greece, and London). I quoted founding fathers. I quoted from George Washington’s first inaugural address given on April 30, 1789:

“No people can be bound to acknowledge and adore the Invisible Hand which conducts the affairs of men more than those of the United States. Every step by which they have advanced to the character of an independent nation seems to have been distinguished by some token of providential agency.”

Does this collective view of “providential agency,” the hand of God in history, apply on an individual and personal level? Logically, it does. The individual is a part of the collective. Biblically it does. Proverbs 16:9 declares, “A man’s heart plans his ways, but the LORD determines his steps.”

It seems that the differences between our plans and the LORD’s paths compose a dance in which I wait or move and God affirms or redirects. The movement seldom is straight forward. I dance by faith not by sight, seeking to follow Jesus.

I recognize that God provides many good options; not all decisions are a matter of right or wrong. I also realize that some decisions are life-changing, and that I will not always know when a little choice will alter the river’s course. Such knowledge is not entrusted to me. My trust is owed to “the Invisible Hand,” who is trustworthy, adorably so according to George Washington.

Therefore, I recognize that my husband’s and my crazy mixed up summer is not an indication that the “Invisible Hand” was withdrawn from our experience, leaving us whirling and swirling dizzily with no hope of sense and meaningful progress. God has been involved, always present in the whirling swirls, directing our steps for purposes currently unnecessary for us to understand.

Do you identify with our experience?

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To Share in Common: The Movement of Community

Scattered. Unsettled.  Where is the solid ground under my feet?

After four and a half months in Florida, I arrived home with my husband, Paul, from central Florida on May 16. Paul had flown home on March 24, and flew back south on May 7 to drive me home. I stayed longer because the Bible study I taught was scheduled for later in the spring. I had the wonderful opportunity to teach my Bible Study, A Traveler’s Guide through Suffering and Joy, to a group of ladies at our Florida church. The experience wrung me dry physically while delighting my heart.

What joy to spend six Monday mornings with twenty ladies who love the Lord and are hungry to study His Word! The intensity, wonder, and delight we experienced together was a true picture of Christian community: to commune together, sharing our common commitment to God, His Scriptures, and each other. Rich.

To share in common: this is a movement of community.

After just one week back home in Fort Wayne, we were bombarded with family members. To share in common: the crazy hubbub of family community.

Recently I read an article in The Washington Stand called “The Wilderness of Social Isolation and the Christian Call to Community,” by Hannah Tu. (1)

Isolation versus community. In recent years we’ve been hearing much about the isolation that modern technology has enabled as an unintended side effect of technological efficiency. Tech’s mixed blessing and bane.

What does community, isolation, and location (Florida and Indiana) have to do with my sense of  being scattered and unsettled?

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When a Verb Becomes a Noun, and I Accept the Changes    

Nouns are often used as verbs and verbs as nouns.

For instance, my grandmother would use the noun, butter, as a verb. “Do you want me to butter your toast?”

Let’s look at a sample from Scripture. The following is from the Berean Literal Translation of Matthew 28: 19: “Therefore having gone [as you are going], disciple all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.”

Here, “disciple” is used as a verb, an imperative (command). Disciple (verb). Something you should do. Many translations take this same Greek word and translate it as a verb plus noun: “make disciples.”  Here “disciple” is used as a noun (direct object) and “make” is the verb (a transitive verb). Disciple can be a noun or a verb. A disciple is a pupil, student, or follower of a teacher or leader. “To disciple” is to lead someone, teaching and training a person to follow the leader (Christ), in order to become more like Him.

Subject, verb, direct object: Disciples disciple disciples: noun, verb, noun.

What’s your point?

My husband and I recently spent a week at Good Samaritan Mission in Balm/Wimauma, Florida. The director, Bill Cruz, is a licensed, certified Marriage and the Family Counselor. Besides being a professional counselor, he has been a pastor, mission director, and actor. We love to hear his stories and his biblical teaching.

In discussing the arc of marriage and child-rearing, Bill noted that when we become parents, the words, “Father” and “Mother” are verbs. We spend decades fathering and mothering our children. We verb them: hold them, feed them, change them, and get up at night with them. We teach and train them. Yes, we disciple them. We take them to school, church, and activities. We are verbing.

Then parents become nouns. What does this mean? How does that look?

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Hearing God’s Voice Through the Hurt. (How Then Shall We Hear? Part 2)

I opened an email recently from a dear friend, Brenda, who is traveling through breast cancer. She’s had surgery. Currently, she is following a regimen of chemotherapy which will be followed by radiation.

I met Brenda back in 1978 when I was a thoroughly green, new teacher, smack out of college. Brenda was the young mama of one bubbling, blond bundle, two year old Rebecca. Brenda’s husband was the head of the English department at Baymonte Christian High School. I had been hired to fill an opening in the English department after a young teacher had been killed in a driving accident on highway 17 between San Jose and Scotts Valley, California. The school was in Scotts Valley. I had never heard of this California town before Mr. Wallace, the school’s superintendent, came to Grace College in Winona Lake, Indiana, looking for a teacher to fill Carol’s roll.

I had recently graduated from Grace. Mr. Wallace talked me into accepting the teaching position he needed to fill. No, this is not true. He did not talk me into it. He could not convince me. I had no interest. I was looking for a teaching position in either Ohio or Indiana. No. I was not interested in moving across country. Not one cell in my body was willing to trek across the country to some place I had never heard of to take on my first, full-time career position, all by myself. No.

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How Then Shall We Hear? (Part 1)

I have come to realize that I hear differently, often far differently, from others.

“He who has ears to hear, let him hear,” (Matthew 11:15).

So, what is hearing?

It is auditory sensation.

It is listening.

It is understanding.

It can involve response and obedience.

But it can be painful.

This is my problem. Hearing can be painful, isolating, and confusing. Of course, hearing can be lovely, soothing, encouraging, exciting, and delightful. Moreover, hearing can be faith-building. “Faith comes from hearing…the word of Christ/God” (the “rhema” or spoken word of “Theos”; Romans 10:17). Is your faith weak? Hear more Word. Is hearing like eating? Nourishing?

It seems that Christians “digest” what they hear differently. Here is where hearing becomes confusing. Let me explain my current “hearing” dilemma.

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What Makes You Persevere? And Any Book Updates?

What makes you persevere?

We’re still here, so apparently, we have persevered through the winter, and now spring unfolds upon us. Thank You, Lord! “We’ve come this far by faith, leaning on the Lord….” *

What makes you persevere? This question can take us in many directions, and no matter the direction (personal, psychological, spiritual, relational, or theological), it will take us deep into its own country.

I could story-tell about my winter in Florida, and I’d rather like to do so. I’d also like to delve into the biblical challenge to persevere as explained in Romans chapter 5. “Having been justified by faith… we exult in hope…”(Romans 5:1). Biblical hope empowers me to persevere. The Holy Spirit can use this chapter to motivate us. Before I say anymore about hope-induced perseverance, let me update you on some activity regarding my book, A Traveler’s Guide through Suffering and Joy.

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Eating My Own Spiritual Casseroles and Growing Thereby

This past week I received 110 copies of my newly published book and have taken time each day to eat and walk my way through my own copy, highlighting and marking as I go. Spiritually thirsty and hungry, I’m letting my own chapters, rich in Scriptures, feed me. I’m needy. I need everything in these pages and so much more.

I’m reminded of Martin Luther’s insight that to form a theologian (that is, every Christ-follower) three ingredients are necessary: prayer, meditation on Scripture, and affliction.  We are blessed with an abundance of opportunities to experience all three of these. Really?

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Remembering my Poet, Preacher Papa

Today is the twentieth anniversary of my father’s home-going. I miss that dear boy.

In years past I’ve written a number of posts about him. If you look down the menu column on the left, you will find below the list of categories a list of tagged themes. My father’s name is in this list: Marion R. Thomas and Rev. Marion R. Thomas. If you click on either of these, you will find posts about him and his family, including photos and some of his poems, which I believe will bless you.

I’ve provided two links below to two of my articles about Dad. “Getting Home Before Dark” is the first link, which shows Dad’s sweet view of life as he looks back over 70 years, and then in the last line his mind turns to anticipate the future. This post also introduces Dad’s poem, “Suppose”, which presents a contemplative view of the meaning of life. You’ll find the entire poem in the second post. I offer you these two posts from ten years ago, which take us further back to my father’s time. They are encouraging testaments for us today. Click on the titles below and enjoy.

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The Recursive Nature of Writing and Life

I remember teaching certain principles of writing to my community college students in essay writing classes thirty years ago. Here are three of them:

  1. Writing is a recursive process.
  2. Good writing requires re-writing.
  3. Stop and submit.                                                                                                                                                                             Of course, a number of  points belong between the first and third above. As obvious as these three principles are, they can be difficult and frustrating to follow. With my book I’m currently finalizing for publication yet this year, I’m having trouble getting to the third because I’m in the muck with numbers one and two!

Life is like the recursive nature of writing. (Maybe it’s like all three principles.) Let me explain the three points, my experience, and my current situation.

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